In Loving Memory of Our Greatest Daddy

Yesterday was my dearest Dad 2^nd 7^th day.  Dearest Dad, I can’t believe you are gone; it’s been two weeks already and I still wake up and starts crying knowing your not going to be with us. I don’t know how to talk to Mom, she’s so sad.  My brother TC is taking good care of her.  Also, my beloved nephew Edmund tried to keep her mind off things and have brought her to the hairdresser.  Somehow, all these efforts won’t make my Mum smile.  I want to say the perfect things to her to make her feel somewhat better but I think it won’t help so I don’t say anything at all.  

Dearest Dad, I took your blessed mala the day you left us.  I checked with my Buddhist Dharma friend and he advised that we let you had the blessed bracelet, blessed by His Holiness Dalai Lama and I shall keep one of your blessed items for fond memories… I carry it all the time, even when we went to the Animal Liberation last Sunday to pray for your good and higher rebirth. 

Dearest Dad, I hope you like heaven and the blessed pure land of

Amithabha. Say hi to 2 my grandmas too. It’s strange I dreamt of paternal grandma last night.  Is she with you at this moment?  Dearest Dad, I know you’re watching after us; I can feel the love and warmth of you being around and I wish you can appear in front of me or come into my dreams.  I know I was pretty vocal and stubborn person but you brought me up in a normal, healthy and happy way.  I remember how proud you were when I came in first in class during my secondary school days.  I remembered how well-loved I was being chauffeured by my dearest Dad from school every evening.  Back then, you were driving a motor-bike and I really loved to hug you tight when your bike zoomed and drifted through every passing cars.  I recalled my right ankle was burned by the carburetor. And how anxious and sad you were. Dearest Dad, I still had the burnt mark, to remember your strong love for me. “Dearest Dad, I really miss you. I love you. I know that we had a good relationship, and I know that how much you love all your children. I just wish that we can hear your voice one more time.  Would you talk to me in my dream?”  Dearest Dad, I want you to know that you are the best Dad anyone can have. You were always there for me. I write this blog through tears of pain and sorrow, but also through tears of love and hope. I will always love you Dearest Dad, and that love will keep you alive in my heart. Your loving girl, Doris  DEAREST DAD, WE MISS YOU VERY MUCH. You will be in our hearts, our prayers, and our thoughts forever and ever. With much love, all your children.    May you be blessed by the 3 Jewels, the Great Buddhas, Dharmas and Sanghas and have a greater rebirth in the pure land of Amitabha.